Friends Are Fading Away

By: Lovelyn Y.
Jovellanos

There may be days that when you get up in the morning and things aren’t the way you had hoped they would be, that is when you realized that things aren’t getting better.
I was on my way home one afternoon when I felt so tired and depressed as if something was draining all my strength. Now, I’m lying in bed wondering…

In just a wink of an eye, the smile and the sweetness on their faces was covered with shadow that when I smile at them, they never smile back at me.

I thought we will be good friends, I thought we will always have a good laugh, I thought, these are the friends who will stay and who will NEVER FADE AWAY, but I found myself slapping my face for the reason that I realized that all these THOUGHTS are just a THOUGHT and they were never real, a THOUGHT that just like a junk.

They might shake or scratch their heads why I am writing this when the truth is they did nothing against me. Perhaps they were thinking that I’m like this and I’m like that but sometimes, I wasn’t really what some people thought I was. Perhaps because when I talked to them, they didn’t hear me, when I touched them, they didn’t feel me, when I shout, nobody hears me. I’m just like a friendly ghost that when I talk, shout and touch them, nobody notices me.

Then I think irresistibly. These are the things nagging at the back of my mind. I’m asking why they are treating me like this, I even search for an answer but I can’t find one. I asked but I found no answer. Seems that I’m looking for nothing, seems that I’m a traveler traveling to nowhere. I even tried to put things back, I even tried to bring back the friendship we had started but I end up on this thought; “I failed but I tried.” Now, I realized what my nice and friendly neighborhood had told me, that having a lot of friends is useless if only few are real. I WONDER!!!